Beyond the Front Line, performance prologue

In just fifteen minutes I am to set off for the Lowry for the one o'clock rehearsal (yes, it takes me an hour to walk there. At this point I must have a arse like granite.) We get one rehearsal, then its time to start the shows.

Since last Monday we have worked almost none stop to get this right, to bring it all together with every person fully committed to their piece of performance, and I am not nervous at all. Normally before a show I get 'the buzz', that feeling of adrenaline pumping not through fear or anger but through something completely expected and anticipated, it is a hard feeling to describe, but luckily it is better just to feel it than to describe it. Blue company is so distanced from the audience that I don't know if I will get to feel the buzz that I look forward to feeling, this concerns me because quite often its that feeling which drives me forward to do my utmost particularly when the odds are against me, if I'm not getting the feeling of giddy anxiousness then I don't really feel part of the performance, I really am just an extra.

No matter, I am sure we are prepared enough and the shows will go well.