So, how did it go?

Ooooh I bet all my readers are wondering how my audition at salford went (all four of you.)

Well, I made sure to ask before I left, and they told me I'd made a very good impression, and they would be happy to offer me a position on the course... well, you'd think that would be it wouldn't you? you'd think, 'wehey roll on september!', but there's a catch

I applied for two courses, BA Performing Arts and BA Contemporary Theatre Practice thinking well, if I can't get Performing arts, which is what I want, Ill take the other and then switch (as quite a few people have advised me to do) and guess what, I got an audition!.. for the wrong one. So I did an audition based on something I know very little about, and she was impressed mainly by my writing (a little less by my acting, she could probably tell I've never performed my piece before) and said she was willing to offer me a place on her course, but thought I might be unsuitable for performing arts based on the piece that I did.

So I explained to her, I only performed a contemporary non-naturalistic piece because that was the audition I got, if I'd have god the interview I wanted for Performing Arts I would have revised for a different audition which I would probably have been better at. Well she accepted that, and said she would have a word with the course leader for BAPA (BA Performing Arts) and see what happens, she said its possible they will offer me both positions and let me decided for myself (to which I reply 'gee, thanks' in my head) but was polite as possible in making it clear that Id much rather enter uni on a less sophisticated course, considering I haven't studied theatre or drama before (in an educational sense) so now its a case of waiting, and seeing what will happen, we did discuss other things but I think she's more concerned with the numbers on her course and the administration involved in transferring students than she is for what I actually want from Uni, so lets just wait and see.

In other news my Uni lecturer for Psychology at bolton sent me the link for a rather interesting article, I have my opinions on this rubbish but you can make up your own mind...

Are times a-changin'?

Ok so, with life the way its been I'm getting a little frizzled with my schedule, but I do enjoy updating the web site with articles, blogs and pictures, so I've decided to make things a little simpler for me, that's right, I'm looking into wordpress.

I know I know, everyone's going the direction of wordpress at the moment but there's a reason for that... its very convenient for today's blogger on the go! I can keep the sites style quite well and will only be making the main page into a wordpress blog, everything else will stay the same, I might not even be able to do it with my current hosting package so it may not happen, but we'll see.

In other news, holy shit I have an audition at salford! There was me moaning about not receiving a reply when I actually get one and now I'm terrified it'll all go wrong, I know its too easy to fall into a self-doubt cycle but I just feel so under-prepared for this one. I've been asked to prepare a contemporary non-naturalistic piece, then attend an interview, then hand them a written critique of a recent live performance I've seen, and after wikipedia-ing the words 'contemporary' and 'non-naturalistic' I'm still none the wiser. My plan at the moment is 'A day in the life of a Lancashire terrier', from what I've heard, non-naturalistic means non-human perspective, or something, so there you have it, me = screwed.

I hope its not the audition that stops me getting in, Id hate that, all this year would have been wasted in one afternoon if I fail that audition... here's hopin'!

Faster than a speeding update.

Ok I'm going to try and make this brief because if I was to start the story from the beginning, I'd run out of web space. My parents finally got the right to foster my nephew Jay, but due to a shit up in administration, I have had to move out while he is here. This isn't a permanent thing I am told, it is only until me police check is processed (which I am also told is being put through as an 'emergency' which will hopefully make it quicker.

Why such a rushed update you ask? I'll tell you: I am pretty much lodging at my brothers, coming back home during the day to do work which needs doing on the computer, but my brother and sister-in-law have their own child to worry about, let alone my brothers odd work patterns so I'm trying not to disrupt things with them too much, as its jolly decent that they are letting me stay regardless. Add all this commotion to the fact that I have three deadlines next week, a report, a work-sheet and a case study, two of which I haven't even thought about since I was assigned the work, having already done a group presentation and a seminar earlier this week, add to that the rehearsal and script studying I haven't had time for, for the upcoming play with ByoU, I'm feeling particularly guilty about that considering I really do enjoy it, and feel I'm letting all the others down (though I haven't really been feeling over-confident as some of the cast members levels of commitment, they might be in the same boat as me, so I'm not going to judge.)

All of this none sense when just a year ago my time was spent on absolutely nothing, I was going nowhere, but I was happily going nowhere. I wouldn't go back there no matter how bad things get, but I'm sinking deeper here and its only going to get worse before it finally ends, which is set to be May 26th, I've probably aged five years within the space of nine months thanks to this course, and I still haven't heard from Salford, the only uni I have applied to through UCAS.

Seeing red

Its that time again ladies and gentlemen, red nose day is vast approaching and I'm stuck for ideas on what to do! I definitely want to get in on the comedy action but nothing I do shocks people anymore (I'll take that as a good thing because I choose to damn it!)

Ideas on a post card mayhaps? I don't know, I've recently splashed out on a new kilt which will be arriving soon so maybe I can do something with that, maybe get sponsored for a day in the kilt or something, I could probably get a few laughs out of that.

Another Idea I had was to work with accents, like get sponsored to spent a day with a regional accent, problem is I'm still not 100% on my accents so I'd probably sound shit trying to do one all day, it would be good practice though, I'll think on that one. Oh I've just had a brilliant idea, hows about I spend a day in my full kilt outfit, and have a scottish accent! then again to the people that don't know me it would just look like either a really proud scot or an over ambitious highlander fan.

Shame I don't have a comments thing yet, Id really like to find out what you guys thin, I was considering just giving in and residing to word press, it would be easier but it would also take away some of what makes this site so personal I think, I'm not sure! email me with your ideas, or ring me if you know my number~

A quick update, I have filled out my UCAS form and sent it out last week, and I received a post card thingy from salford uni informing me that they are considering my application, those bitches! why isn't it a simply yes or no, they have all the information there! are they waiting for better people to come along is that it? have I gone to the bottom of a pile, a "just incase no-one turns up we'll let him in" pile? I'm very annoyed but I think thats just because I hate being in limbo like this, its unfair, I can't even focus on my course!

I'd also like to apologise, I'm not sure how many of you were looking forward to the rambling of an old crone this month, but she's been snowed in since late january. I know the snows all melted, they keep having it sent down from scotland and dumping it over her bungalow, just to give us an extra week rest.

...yes, they've cut her phone wires, I think she can still get radio 4 though.

I'm losing it

I think I'm losing the battle, shits getting very, very serious now. In the past three weeks I've had three deadlines for worksheets and essays, I have a presentation on monday and an essay due wednesday, and I havn't even started the essay. I really don't think I can handle this, I'm drowning in work. My problem is, although I have the best intentions, I can't get work started, once its started I'm usually fine, but getting going is impossible for me.

I know I joke about motivation, and its easy for someone to turn to me and say 'just do it', but it is a real barrier for me. Right now I have the best motivation I can think of, which is salford university, and I still can't get my head down. Not only that, but almost everyone else on the course seems to be getting along fine with things, the odd one or two complain about the amount of work, but they'll also say "I'm going to get this and that done tonight", and they'll actually do it!

Maybe I'm taking too many things for granted. I do have difficult conditions in terms of this social worker and adoption nonesense (if you don't knkow, its a rather long story) as a result of which they have cut me a bit of slack (about +1 week on deadlines.) I think I might just have to stop in some nights and get it done, or not go out to wigan for lunch, and such. I have B.yoU mondays and thursdays but there is no way I am missing this years performance, lead role, most of the story is my own work and its already got some expectant followers, not to mention I have it on my UCAS application already (and I havn't lied anywhere else on it!)

Thats it, I have had enough of feeling like a dick head over my own short comings. I'm not academic, but unlike my brothers and close friends I'm not going to let that barrier stop me. In fact, I don't think there is such a thing as 'not academic', I can do the work and thats all I need to be academic! I care too much about my future to let this oppertunity for a career to slip me by, theres too much at stake to let it fall through my fingers.